I guess it has been a journey of discovery.
I started as a boy, young enough not to have any pubic hair, cumming in my mothers panties (that is probably why I still shave myself today, to maintain some of the frisson I first discovered).
Then I became a teen with a fascination for panties and soon all lingerie, masturbating as much as I could while dressed in women's clothes.
My fascination turned in to a fetish for wanking in all things feminine, and as a young man, readily identified as a transvestite. Happy with my feminine role, I found both comfort and stimulation en femme, now shaving off all my body hair to maintain that illusion.
Over the past few years, I have enjoyed the development of my submissive side, that, I feel is key to developing my notion of being a sissy.
I restrain my cock and balls, I plug my anus, and wear lingerie as much as possible. I jerk my bald penis off frequently to make myself cum, dreaming of being used and abused by men want to fuck all my holes, and who want to dominate me and cum inside me.
I recognize their superior massive erections humiliate my pathetic limp dick, and I will do anything to make them cum. I will lap up my own sperm and swallow their jets of thick spunk, I will drink my own piss and have them urinate into my face and open mouth, as long as they stretch my mancunt and throat when they brutally fuck me.
I am emerging as a sub sissy slut, happy to be used by anyone that wants me.