One of my long-time friends, 20+ years, mustered up the courage a few months back to ask if I might want to mess around, also to forget he'd asked if I wasn't. Well, just so happens that we finally got together this evening and had some naughty, naked fun. Little did I know, until he was driving me back to my house, that It had been his first time ever exploring the realm of homosexual intercourse. Struck me funny as we got dressed, when he made a timid remark about possibly getting a place together. I'm going to let him think on that one for a hot minute and see how he works it out on his own before I butt in with my ¢2.

I apologize for the delay on this continuance, just been working a lot. He told me that he was going to stick his penis inside of my butt and that if I was to tell anyone, no one would believe me and that people would just make fun of me. And of course, I was gullible enough to believe him. He then proceeded to stick his fingers inside of me one at a time incredibly slowly until he stretched me out enough to start having sex with me. This tore me up for the longest time and it happened 3 times. About six months later one of my good friends in the area I was living was playing in the woods with me and nonchalantly asked me, " not to be gay, but if I was to go down on you would you return the favor?" I very quickly agreed because I wanted to know what it was like due to having been taken advantage of by the older boy. My friend and I took turns and started with just putting each others penises in her mouth and going up and down once or twice, just to see if we'd like it. We both agreed that it felt good and that it wasn't all that bad to return the favor. This Behavior went on for about 8 to 12 months, then one day my friend told me he no longer wanted to do it with no reason given why. A long time passed and nothing with anybody else for quite some time until we moved and the kid in the neighborhood that I was living in brought some Mike's Hard lemonades to the bike track near our house. He asked me if I wanted to go back to his house to you have another one. I agreed, and once we got back to his house and into his basement room, he pulled out a dirty magazine. We were looking at it then he remembered he had another so he went and got it for me. As we were browsing through our own magazines, I decided to put my hand in my pants and stroke myself. He saw me and told me that it'll be okay if I pulled it out so I didn't have to climax in my pants. Then we got into the conversation of how we felt about giving each head. We did and both enjoyed it very much, so much so that we were doing it pretty well every day. That ended, then seven years past and went to a concert with some friends. We had our own hotel rooms and I was all alone, so I hit up my friend who lived in the area and I knew was gay. I told him how much I thought about having a real man instead of toy fuck me in the butt so I would know how it felt for somebody to do it out of true desire and not just their own need to release. 45 minutes after he started, I was no longer able to walk my teeth were vibrating, and when I finally slid off the bed, there was a puddle wider than my body from me having orgasm 90% of the time my friend was thrusting himself in and out while straddling me as I lay face down. I know I'm not gay because once I get into a homosexual encounter, all is well and good so long as there's no cuddling or kissing and at the end I no longer have desire to be involved intimately with another man. The only thing I enjoy about it is going down on and being topped by an experienced man with a nice, fat beautiful cock. I'm sure if I found a girl that is kinky and down with put a strap on on and sticking it to me instead of me sticking it to her once in awhile, I would not have to long for that feeling and be disappointed every time I answer a personal ad or one in a mine is answered these weak minded fools flake on me.

About midway through the summer between my 5th & 6th grade years, I received a completely unexpected and even more unwanted surprise while playing in the woods around where I lived. A boy much older than me snatched me up once I walked past the tree he was hiding behind. At first I thought he was just playing around, that was, until he put his knee in the middle of my back so he could tie my hands and gag me. As he pulled my shorts down around my ankles, he explained that what he was about to do wouldn't be provable because of the way he does it. I was absolutely petrified... to be continued.

I live in a town where being a bisexual automatically classifies you as gay. No one seems to understand being incapable of falling in love with another man, while still having the desire to dress in women's clothes, feel pretty for a short time, whilst hopefully meeting up with a well endowed man to drop to my knees and make his fat, throbbing cock disappear. If I get super duper lucky, he'll know just how bottoms enjoy being fucked so I may have the teeth tingling joy of being laid face down and plowed, cumming continuously as I'm being plowed. Then, once my daddy's heart is content, laying there, shaky and unable, better, completely uninterested in getting up, feeling so relieved and exhausted. Once cleaned up and back on with the day to day, fantasizing about beautiful women sitting on my face, giving me head, and all that romantic, cuddly, love related stuff that has not once popped into the light when having a homosexual encounter. Now CL personals have been shut down, so now, having an insane urge to let out the inner cockslut, my options are non existent, unless I want to have 90% of the people shunning me for something I can't help. I never looked to find an opportunity to suck and get fucked by another male until long after I turned 18. Somehow a close friend always found a way to sneak in a hint that they wanted to experiment "not to be gay" so they could see what it was like to have someone go down on them and were willing to return the favor cause it was only fair. I'm going to quit smoking cigarettes and possibly stave off eating for the most part until I can save back a decent stack of cash, then make like a set o big titties and bounce my way somewhere warmer, more open-minded. Any suggestions...?