Mikki_Irish's blog post - Our true essence?

I have a friend, a sub, who incessantly addresses me as ma'am during play, in messages, in comments. While endearing, it is only a role they wish me to fill for them. It isn't real to me, other than me fulfilling their desire to feel dominated. I am fine with that, and happy to oblige.

Yet our real connection is mental or psychological, maybe even spiritual? We have tapped into each other's inner selves at times and fully let go and shared something. Our true essence? I think this is permanent, a true give and take. A part of them will always be with me, a part of me with them.

Without that true connection and fully letting go it is just sexual release. Nothing is really given or taken, other than maybe a load of semen. Nothing stays with you permanently. A thirst was quenched, but other than that it is simple, meaningless, fun.

Then again, I am a head-case. I tend to over-think and over-analyze everything, trying to understand until my brain hurts. When we meet in real life (which I hope we do), you will see that I am rather out there. I tend to stare into space a lot, in my own thoughts, oblivious.