Bend me over smack my ass
I'm so naughty full of sass
Your cock so big hard as brass
Shove it deep and make me gasp

I'm in constant control of everything in my life and work. Always the boss, always telling everyone what to do and how to do it. When I was younger I thought that was what I wanted to work myself to the top and be the one in charge. But being in charge comes with so much responsibility and stress. I believe that is what has turned me from being a versatile switch (if that's what I ever actually was) to being a submissive bottom. I just want to be cute and slutty with no cares or worries in the world.

Constantly lost so it always seems, 
I see nothing but unfulfilled dreams,
scattered and drifting down many streams, 
mother of earth can you hear my screams.

I hate having lived with all these lies,
I will show strength and tall I will rise,
I will stare fate right in its dark eyes,
I will aim high reaching for the skies.

Beautifully mesmerizing are your hazel eyes

My arms around you hearing your pleasurable cries

Your body as beautiful as the stars in the night sky

The beauty I see I can never fully explain why

There's no better feeling than having you at my side

I love you so much the day I lost you I laid down and cried

Constantly living a double life,
My greatest pleasure hidden with strife,
Many that would make a perfect wife,
Lost on account of my double life,

To balance what is needed from me,
To stand solid as an old oak tree,
I can't control what possess me,
I just want to crumble to my knee,

Why must I constantly be this way,
Must I strugle each and every day,
Confused in bed sad with tears I lay,
For it's such a costly price to pay,

It took over a year with more failed attempts than I can count but I finally was able to get off by only anal, about five weeks of edging then I was riding my dildo letting my little sissy clitty flap around I wasn't sure if I was fixing to pee or cum but I just kept bouncing on that dildo and let it happen two good shots of cum and it felt so good I collapsed over on my side in a quivering mess dildo still in my sissy ass and a great big smile of satisfaction on my face, I finally know what girls feel like when they get a good fucking!!

The next goal is to catch the sissygasam on camera

I wonder sometimes where my fascination with big cocks comes from
I wonder sometimes where my fascination with being dominated comes from
I wonder sometimes where my fascination with being fucked like a slut comes from
I wonder sometimes where my fascination with being a little sissy comes from
I wonder sometimes what would happen if I came out the closest completely
I wonder sometimes how my family friends and coworkers would respond

With all the pleasure I've enjoyed by being a switch i think its has been the source of my constant inner battle, I am up for almost anything i love sex of all kinds vanilla sex with my girlfriend or BDSM with her slapping her face choking her being as rough as i can because she loves it, or letting her domante me pegging my ass making me her bitch,or sex with other men sucking eachothers cocks pounding eachothers asses ,dressing up in lingerie and being a sissy for a strong man or with another sissy,my ongoing quest to orgasm from anal sex and prostate stimulation without touching my cock,so many things ive done and so many things I've yet to try in the end i don't think there is any one thing I like the most i guess that just makes me a perverted kinky fucker a sexual deviant and im ok with that ,to me sex is a source of release like a drug maybe im a sex addict i can think of worse things to be addicted to