chrissiecd's Blog

If you read my profile, you would had saw / read that I live in Erie PA, so Last week end there was a special event at Presque Isle state park (for those who are not from PA or do not know what Presque Isle is - it is a sandy peninsula which juts out into the lake.) That are / were lots of things going on there, so my wife and I went there several days to join in on the activities. Each day I wore a male bathing suit and wore panties underneath the suit. Also it was sunny an windy day(s) so as usual I / we wore a special long sleeve shirt for protection from sun burn. This shirt has a special coating for UV rays protection.

Anyway, after each day, I would change my bathing suit and panties and throw in the my dirty laundry basked. Making sure that my soiled panties were on top and always open to View. The special UV protection shirt on the bottom with my panties on top.

The other day, I was about to wash my laundry, when my wife said she wanted to do hers and beat me to the laundry room. So, today I took my laundry basket to the laundry room and was going through them sorting my whites / panties and colors / dark. I could not find the special UV shirt, so I asked the wife if she saw it, thinking that I left it out some where. She replied that she already washed it. OH MY, my heart stopped . . . . .
Do you know what that means ! ! ! ! In order for her to get that shirt, she had to go though my laundry basket looking for the shirt. She had to see and or touch a good many of multiple colors / silky panties ! My asking her about the shirt gave her the perfect opportunity to Blast me ! ! but she said nothing. Just said, "I took it from your basket and washed it as you know, it needs special handling" and then said "It's hanging in the extra room" nothing more, no additional comments what so ever. Like I said prefect opportunity and I opened myself to it by asking

This was certainly "Something Unexpected" as up until then, she had stopped doing my wash. Even though it was a very small part of my laundry.

At this point I don't know what to think - is she becoming more accepting or what ! ! ? ?

Think, I will keep on trying to take / make baby steps toward her acceptance. Not sure how but,

I Still have the Black Bra in my panty draw which I am not sure if she has seen.

I will keep pushing the limits as untimely I hope to free chrissie from the closet - or at least let her out a little more that she ever has before.

At least I have the door opened somewhat with a foot or two out already

Wish me luck

So, In my efforts to keep pushing my limits on the wife:

Yesterday afternoon I decided that I needed to do some laundry. So I took my laundry basket of soiled clothing to the laundry room and washed 2 loads - one, whites which included my panties and one, colored which included all colored items. My procedure is to put a load in the washer and when the cycle is completed, I put it in the dryer and load put the second load in the washer. The cycle time for the dryer is about the same for the washer, I take the whites out of the dryer and put in the (wet) colored items. Normally, I would just stand and fold my whites (panties) using the top of either the washer of dryer, (Hiding) BUT - yesterday I was feeling frisky and bold and decided to take my laundry up stairs to the living room and sit and fold my laundry with my wife watching the NASCAR race. She was sitting on the couch and I sat in my lazy boy chair which is located some what forward of her to the right. I had a laundry basket full of mostly (multi colored) panties and white undershirts, which I dutifully sat down to my left giving her a clear view of the contents and openly and gently folded my panties. I know she could had to have easily seen or observed my activity as I tried to not make it obvious but not hide at the same time what I was folding. I know she was watching, as she made quite a few comments during the race while I was folding my panties and gently placing them back in the basket. Noting Said - I love pushing the limits ! ! ! !

I have a Black Bra (hidden) and I have been thinking of pushing the limits by putting it in my night stand on top of my panties so if she is looking she will find/ see it.
What do you think ? ? ?

It Happened - and I am so glad it happened !

First a little back ground -
I am a married (closeted) Cross Dresser - I have been a Panty wearing Sissy - Cross Dresser for most of my life - it all started started as a pre-teen 11 or 12, I discovered my female cousins Silky panties in my bed room one afternoon after she changed into her bathing suit - I remember picking them up smelling them, they felt so good, cool and silky that I just had to try them on and I was HOOKED - Probably just like every other panty loving CD. I started Barrowing panties and eventually started barrowing bras which lead me to start wearing Fem Clothing and down the proverbial Rabbit Hole I went.

Flash forward - Like I previously said, I am a closeted Bi (I consider myself Fem Bi) Panty Lover Cross Dresser having been married for just a little short of 40 years. For the last 35 years I have been Deep in the Closet, then about 5 years ago, I decided enough was enough, what could happen? believing my wife has a suspicion about my Bi side or suspected something about my fem side, I decide to attempt to come out to her - at least about my panty wearing cross dressing (Note at that point in our marriage she had stopped having sex and even began to sleep in another BR - her lam excuse was I snored - so - She did to ! !!! So what did I have to lose ! ! ! ! ! !

To make things short - the Coming out did not go well ! ! ! ! ! She did not take my cross dressing very well and would not condone / accept it. Heated argument, she wanted me to stop - That's like telling me to stop living and that wasn't going to happen, and finally at the end, I told her, "No matter what she wanted " I was going to continue to wear panties no matter how or what she felt and from that day on, I was going to wear panties 24 / 7. I told her that, I was going to remove all my male underwear from my underwear drawer and replace them with Panties. (currently have TWO drawers full of panties) In order compromise some what, I told her I would not flaunt it in front of her but all the same, I wanted her to know that when she looked at me, she knew that I was wearing panties under my male clothing. That was it, nothing more said, the worst thing she did was, she stopped washing my cloths and obviously no more sex. Which didn't bother me as I was already in a sexless marriage! I can get all my jollies on my own, just wearing panties, dressing when I could and the occasional get together with other CDers

Oh, Back to the reason for this up Date:
The other Day was a very hot day for this area - upper 80's, low 90's - the weather forecasted for rain and my grass need cut very badly, so I decided to go out an cut it. When I finished, I was all sweaty (note - I had silky nylon panties on which caused me to sweat even more) and went in and got ready to take a shower. My normal procedure is to pick out what I want to wear after showering including panties (White with dark blue trim and dark but pock a dots) before going into the bathroom and take it with me and put on vanity. Feeling very frisky, I decided to wear one of the pair of panties mentioned in previous Blog - Major Score - Sister in laws panties. (always wanted to Fuck her and get her panties) So I take my shower and dry off and as I usually do and put on my panties. I was standing at the sink in my panties brushing my hair and the door opens - it my wife - wanting to pee - what could it do, I just moved over out of her way so she could get through and she stopped looked down and over to me and said "Where did you get those? - I told her, "I had them for a long time and decided to break them out". That was the very first time she has ever seen me in panties. (not the last time if I have anything to say about it) Nothing more was said - I was expecting another blow out - butt nothing ! ! I don't know - as nothing more was said, She may have recognized her sister's panties on me or not, as over the last year she has been doing her sister's wash due to sister illness. And didn't want to say anything or get in an argument. Anyway, I don't care - I'm tired of hiding my feeling and repressing my desires - like I said what can she do to me. -
I will continue to be low key but begin to push more on her limits

I am going to try to post a few pictures of the panties, but as a non paying member, I think the limit is 12 pictures - Think I'll try deleting a few and see if I can add a few new ones.

Kisses
chrissie

This is for all Panty Lover's and CD'ers
A little background - Have any of you ever wanted and desired the panties of some girl / women so much so that you could just about taste them in your mind and took ever opportunity to see what she was wearing or what type of panties she was wearing. Imagining what it would feel like to wear her panties! But never got the chance to barrow any of her panties.
Every Panty Lover Sissy has at least one such person that you are constantly around but for what the reason you are not able to borrow her panties - getting little quick gimps of her panties sticking a little above her shorts or Jeans as she bent over and seeing the panty line of her panties at the same time . . . .

Well, that was the situation I was in with my Sister in Law. My wife (knows about my love to wear panties (I currently wear 24 7 with my own panty draw that she knows about) but she does not condone it or participate) I / we have married for 35+ years and Sister in Law (SiL) is always around. (Like having a bowl of candy sitting and not being able to touch or eat it)
Now bear in mind that SiL in some what chubby more like BBW but there is just something about her that I have desired her for all these yeas (Guess like forbidden fruit) - you know you want it, but you can not have it !

I have all the access to my wife's panties to wear I want along with a large collection of other woman's borrowed panties to wear.

I Prefer to wear other woman's panties, so in the event I am with that Other woman, I get such a thrill knowing I have her panties that she once wore m m m m

But for what ever the reason, SiL is the ultimate goal of my desires. (Note-I do have another ultimate goal but I doubt I will ever be able to accomplish it - hint High school GF)

I do get all excited and make Wet Spots in my panties just being around SiL and thinking of getting and wearing her panties m m m mm love it

Well, alright for The Major Score - As it Happened - I was able to get err- borrow 7 pairs of her pantie ! ! ! ! ! How so many? Let me explain: SiL asked wife an I to come over to her house an help her with moving and rearrange her bed room. (I was in my glory of having the opportunity to get into her BR as I eagerly agreed to help. Her BR furniture was big and heavy which required the removal of all the draws to lighten them. To my surprise and delight (could you believe it) she had 3 drawer full (and I mean draws Full) of a rainbow of colored panties and another large drawer full of bras. MY SIZE (Sorry to say I was not able to borrow any)

Wife commented to SiLr, why so many panties? SiL then pointed out, Drawer # 1 as newer, Drawer # 2 as older and Drawer # 3 as old. She said she brought new ones and just never got around or chance to go through old ones to throw out. Wife suggested some time in the future, we should go through them and start cleaning some out to make room for other things.

I just stood there with a big Smile on my face and lots and lots of thoughts going through my mind as I knew that there would be a time while I was there, when I would be alone in the room.
As It happened. the girls left me alone while they went to go out to pick up something to eat and I got my chance. While they were out I went through each drawer (1,2,3) and picked out some from the BOTTOM - ALWAYS THE BOTTOM - seven pairs of panties (pictured) You would think she would miss 7 pairs - even with a few pairs barrowed from each drawer,, the drawers were stuffed Full, I could have borrowed more and I doubt she will ever miss them.
Wife again suggested (an SiL agreed) that she should get go through her panty draws and throw out some and make more room for other things. M M M I can't wait till that happens as I know I will be involved - So looking forward to another Score - hopefully some bras next time.

For the silky nylon, satin panty lovers, Sorry to say none were Silky, or Satin - mostly some sort of cotton blend (I personally prefer silky nylon - but I still got the golden ring that I have desired for so long m m m. (Big Wet Spot in the badge pair in photo #! - I am currently wearing as I type this. (In my profile)

Sorry I am long winded but I am so excited about my score that I just had to tell some one - guess the is like getting on top of my roof and yelling it - At least it will be appreciated and seen by people who understand my feelings

Thanks for listening !
Kisses
chrissie