friday night and i feel so down
draggin my ass all over town
so lonely so all alone feeling
everthing in life wants to
send me reeling
i need someone
someone to hold me
someone to tell me
its gonna be alright
shy smile and warm caring heart
wish i'd found you from the very start
where can you be hiding
only thing that keeps me going
is thinking one more town
and maybe i'll find you
soul mate, lover, friend for life
closer than any man can be to a wife
maybe its all just the dream of a fool
cynical ain't how i want to live though
sadly neither is all alone

johnny

finally. i got to get out into the sunshine. there's been nothing but rain lately and it's been a relief. got a handful of pics out of my first couple adventures. posted the best three, more will definately follow - weather permitting.

jR

i shouldn't be sad. she hasn't been anything of a girlfriend for at least a year. i guess giving up on any hope of things being better is something to grieve. i should be happy that i no longer feel obliged to be faithful to her. i dread the final details that need to be dealt with - joint bank account, car insurance, got some of her stuff here. i just never want to see her or speak with her again. sadly that will have to wait.

i hate her. i feel so alone, but i've been alone for probably 2 years. i've just been fooling myself into thinking things might get better.

they never do.

j

someone just reminded me that i'd been keeping a blog. you may notice this is the first entry since christmas cause, well hell i forgot ok

so i'm alone in the house now. everybody else moved out. gf and her boys gone. my son moved in with his gf a month ago. i'm naked when i'm home. doing dishes. laundry. vaccuming. whatever.

i so hunger to feel someone's love for me still, always. sometimes i wonder if there is love like that out there. it seems like if they don't stop loving me, i stop loving them. over and over since my dick first sprouted fuzz.

got some more pics with my new bracelet today. i love how it looks. so sexy and kinda mysterious. almost like there should be magic in it. i know it's only a plasticy thing, but i like to dream

hugs to all, johnny

i'm gonna have my daughters here a few days. won't be posting or checkin' messages with any regularity lol.

hope everyone had a sexsational holiday and have some fun new years eve.

hugs, johnny

happy that my internet is restored. i so missed this place and all the cool and sexy ppl that hang here. happy to upload some of the pics i took while i was waiting for the cable to get plugged in.

hugs to all, johnny

for real this time. stay horny boys

johnny

just found out there's likely (and is as of this morning) going to be a crossover of my gf's internet because she hasn't arranged to move it yet, and my own which starts in about 10 days. to celebrate i am posting pics of what i've been up to since the house has emptied out. nothing like a hard dick up your bum to keep from feeling lonely. comments and pm's are always welcome. i love turning you guys on. thanks for being horny with me

hugs to all, johnny

i will be between internet providers for up to two weeks. i will get creative with the camera until then and hopefully have some hot pics to post.

hugs all around, johnny

i'm spending the weekend out of town. i still have more to post from my half hour of fun last friday i don't think i've ever had so much fun out of a quick dress up and wank lol. thanks for all the comments - it really does me good to know i turn you guys on.

hugs to all, johnny