lacyfem3's blog post - Feelings

I remember this first time I dressed and would love to know how others fount this wonderful fetish. For me I guess it's become more than a fetish as so love to dress for a man so I guess I just love being a gurl and lovely cloths and sexy lingerie are a plus to those feelings. I'll just start this blog with how I started and add to as time goes on and love to know others feelings.

My first experience was kind of instant one early evening when I was 10 about to turn eleven. I had by this time been masturbating for 3 years having be taught about that by a neighbor who was older and thought so cool seeing all that lovely white sperm shoot out on his belly. So I was on my way sexually. My parents loved to throw parties and one evening they had early cocktails at our home for about 8 friends and then go to dinner. They were a bit tanked by the time they left and didn't clean up so there were lots of unfinished drinks left behind. So in that I hadn't any alcohol I was curious and started sampling all the drinks from vodka to the bourbon which was my dads favorite. Have to admit I did like the bourbon the best. It didn't take long before I got that lovely buzz and was feeling really as I'm sure many of you can relate to. At that age I was always horny and jerking off a lot feeling so high I took off all my cloths and started stroking my lovely cock which was beautiful and hairless at that time but was a good 6" and soon to grow to 8" as I mature. I lay back on a our couch and sipped the bourbon and stroke myself. I so enjoyed being naked and hard and so drunk I guess. I came on myself and scooped up my cum and ate it as I loved the way it tasted and also ate it making it easy to clean up. I felt I wasn't quite satisfied so that's when I ventured into mom's bathroom and pulled out her dirty panties and bra's and proceeded to try them on. Full cute panties in that era made of silky nylon and as soon as I put them on I got hard again and loved the way my cock looked all hard outlined against that silky materiel which felt so good running my hands over my cock and feeling the smooth material barely holding my cock. I slipped her bra on next which was a lovely lacy C cup bra and obviously I didn't fill it out so stuffed her other panties into the bra cups to fill them out. I'm sure you're thinking did I smell the dirty panties and yes I did and a loved that smell. It all felt so good and girly and I loved the way I looked in her full length mirror. So I slipped a pair of her heels on and took my glass of bourbon and walked around the house feel fem, horny and drunk. My cock was not going down in those panties and I just wandered the house not sure what I was feeling but I was definitely feeling my cock through those panties. It was evening and getting dark so I wandered out into the yard which gave me a real free feeling and the first time I loved being a girl. I walked all around our house as the yard went all around and was hoping someone wouldn't pop in to see me though it was unlikely. I finally came around to the front laid on the grass on my back and stroked my cock and came again but this time into her panties. I was in heaven but I was also very drunk as the first experience with alcohol. I managed to get inside and take the panties out of the bra and sniffed them all before putting them back into the hamper. Then the panties all wet with my cum which I sucked out before putting them into the hamper. It had been a about 2 hours and was barely able to walk I was so drunk and in trouble if they came home early. I'm sure if the right person came home I would have given them my cherry without hesitation I was so drunk but instead I got to my bathroom, threw up and went to bed. The following morning my mother told me to be careful with the alcohol as she knew I'd thrown up as obviously I hadn't cleaned up to well. I was just hoping she didn't see the cum stain in her panties which she didn't. This was my start to being fem and loving so much to wear panties, bra's and all lingerie. I didn't give much thought to what I was at the time but just knew when I slipped a pantie and bra on I got hard and loved cumming in them. At this time of my life I didn't think about being bi or gay but just loved being fem and it was a wonderful and memorall start to my cross dressing