I made a video of me deep throating a big dildo but i am to scared to add it to my pics what should i do.

Been on vacation with family since last Wednesday. Haven't even been able to wear panties. Five more days till I get home. It is torture not being able to be lisa.

I love my wife and i want her to be happy. Even if that means she needs a big cock to do that. I don't have any proof she is fucking around just a hunch. I want to ask her but I'm too nervous to do that. And the thought of a big cock sliding into her kind of turns me on. I know you probably think I'm messed up but i wish she would bring one home and make me dress up and watch.

My wife doesn't have sex with me any more. Says my cock is to small.
Every now and then she will jerk me off. Lately she feeds
me my cum and laughs. I think she is fucking men with bigger cocks.
I want to ask her but I am too ashamed.

When I got my first PC I started to chat as lisa. Then cam. I started to meet some of the men that I cammed with. We would meet so.ewhere then usually end up in a hotel. Mostly I would be on my knees and sick their cock. I loved it when they would grab my head an fuck my mouth. But being sub if they wanted to fuck my ass I would let them. It always hurt but I took it like a good slut and let them finish anywhere they wanted. Then one time I met a friend in a bar for a drink.he said he had some friends who liked my pics and they would love to join us sometime. I was a bit shocked but after talking about it for awhile I said ok. Great I was hoping you would say that because they are here. He waved them over and we all went to a hotel. They all took turns fucking my mouth and my ass. Finally they all came in my mouth or on my face. I felt so cheap and slutty I just layer there for hours after they left before dressing and going home. The next day I called my friend and told him how I felt
He said that's because I was a slut. When I didn't respond he said we should do it again and I agreed.

As I got into my mid 20s I got loved getting dressed completely as a woman. Wigs, makeup, heels, jewelery, lingerie, breast forms, short skirts, and tight tops. Then I would out In public. I would get so turned on. I started to fantasize about sucking cock and getting fucked. I would shave smoth when I was not in a relationship. I would practice sucking the dildo and funding my ass with it. I would cut so hard with it in me. When I was 31 I was having a drink with a friend who was gay but not out though most people kind of knew. We were sitting at margeritaville and I asked him why he just didn't come out. He said it was just embarrassing. I told him I knew how he felt and told Jim I liked to dress like a woman. He didn't believe me and laughed. I looked around unzipped my pants to reveal pink lace panties. He smiled. He said he would ho to a guy bar if I dressed like a woman and went with him. I agreed. The next weekend I hot all dressed up and he came to pick me up. I answered the door and he smiled wow he said. What should I call you John doesn't sound right. Lisa I said. Shall we go. I grabbed my purse and we left. We had a great time. Went back to his place and I sucked my first cock. I was so excited I came in my panties before he did. We saw each other many times after that an always ended in bed.

When i was 20 i broke up with my girl friend.
I put on panryhose panties a bra and small totties with a woman's to and drove to Boston and went to the combat zone. I went to the adult store there to buy some movies and i
Found some breastforms. I bought them along with a dildo and a shemale movie. I put the titties on in the parking garage and drove home. The next time i was alone i shaved for the first time. It was so sensual being smooth all over that i came before i even got dressed.
I dressed and everything felt so sexy against my smooth skin. I put the movie on and came again while watching shemales with big cocks fucking women and men. I was so azed at the size of their cock. Made mine seem so small.

As i grew into my teens i became more and more int dressing in feminine clothes. I started to collect my mom and sisters discarded lingerie. In scouts i was in a tent with my cousin and we talked about sex. He asked if i would eat a women after i came in her. I said yes as it was my own cum. This got me thinking how would it taste. After several attempts i started tasting my precum. Finally i tasted my cum. So thick and salty but i made myself clean it all up. Once i got my license i started to visit all the discount stores, Buying lingerie, skirts, and tops. Dressing was now more fun than ever as i began to go out in fem clothing. I got a mail box in the next town and sent for some tiny foam boobies from Fredricks of Hollywood i also got a wig. I founfd heels to fit at Caldor's and i was a a complete sissy. And it was such fun.

I started crossdressing when i was about 10 or 11. I tried on my moms satin panties and it felt so good against my young clitty. It did something to me even though i still could nor ger an errection. My 1st hard on was ay 12 in the bathroom in panties in front of the mirror. I was shocked. My little clitty (although i didnt call it that yet) got so hard and the satin panties felt so good against it i didnt even touch it. Just the friction from thrusting my hips was enough to make me cum. And it didnt take long. When i pulled the panties down there was so much cum. I started to stroke my clit with the cum. I quickly came again. My knees actually felt weak as the 2nd load came shooting out. Not knowi g what to do i cleaned up and through the panties away. As time went on i tried on other things. Bras, slips, hoisery. Then dresses and skirts. I began to stuff the bra to look more like a woman and tried lippy. There was no turning back now. To be continues