It went on like that for the next several years, dressing when I could and fantasizing while I was jo with moms panties when I could as well. My masturbating took on a new dynamic when I had the time. NO longer trying to cum as fast as my hand would go, but learning how to enjoy my cock through caressing and teasing myself making me so hard. Serendipitously I was having more time to fantasize and explore new territory in my imagination, such as going out dressed and getting caught by mom in her things as I was jo etc. But then to my surprise I began exploring the depth of my imagination even deeper. I started thinking about being with a man with me dressed in nylons, girdle , bra, panties and makeup, and being seduced by him and sucking his cock. I had never though about sucking a cock in my life until now. Incredibly, I found myself cumming so hard, and so long, I didn't know my balls could store so much cum it was amazing. I justified my new homosexual feeling when dressed to the fact that I loved my femme-self so much it may have been a natural progression. A bit confusing but omg so sexy. I was fighting those bi feeling by fucking a many girls as I could. Usually after I fucked them they would go clean up and I would smell their panty's and rub their bra all over my nipples enjoy how her things felt on me. I was so jealous that girls could wear those things all of the time. Then a new entry into my masturbatory fantasy catalog came as big a surprise as sucking a cock did. I was enjoying my cock imagining mom catching me when a new aspect crept in. I was dressed in her things thinking she was out for a while. I was so into jo that I didn't hear her come back. Suddenly I heard her footsteps and opened my eyes to see her walking toward me lying on the bed. As I tried to cover up she came and sat on the bed beside me wearing almost the same thing I was. Next she pulled the sheet off and began to rub my cock through the panties of hers I was wearing and were also wet with precum. In the fantasy my cock gets so hard, it had a mind of its own, she take hold of it and begins to play with it making it even harder, I look at her and see a look I had never seen but I am sure her lovers had, when she pulls my panties to the side and takes hold of my rigid throbbing cock and starts to stroke it. As she is jerking me off she is telling me that she knew I was using her things because of the cum she saw in her panty's when she did the laundry. in the fantasy my precum is on her hand and she licks her fingers clean then tells me she doesn't want to clean up the mess that I am going to make. She leans over and takes my cock in her mouth and gives me a blowjob sucking every drop of cum out of my cock. This fantasy made me cum so hard I almost cried it felt so good.

So now I not only am dealing with being bi sexual and loving the fantasy involving incest. My imagination carried me to new places when I jerked off. From men seducing me as a woman to mom taking it further. Now anytime I looked at mom my cock would involuntarily get hard.

I now allowed my fantasies to go anywhere, and they did. The sexiest and maybe the most incestual fantasy a son could have, not to mention how perverted, a word no longer in my vocabulary, grew to a new arousal peak. It went like this; one evening mom called me to her bedroom and to my surprise saw laying on her bed was a black bras and panties, a black girdle with suspenders and nylons. She told me get undressed and to take everything off. I was nude in front of her and of course I was had. Mom began dressing me in the things that were lying on the bed she got on her knees in front of me to hook my nylons to my girdle when the tent I made with a hard cock in her panties brushed her face. she kissed it as she finished my nylons and then ran her hands up and down them to straighten them out. After was dressed she had me lay on her bed. She then took her robe off and was wearing the exact same thing I was wearing. she asks me how she looks and my cock is throbbing in her panties looking at me she says I can tell you like how I look. She picks a shade of lipstick and put some on. She asks me I would like to try her lipstick and I nod yes. Mom gets on the bed next to me and leans over and kisses me. That looks nice she says but you need more whereupon she leans over and this time French kisses me pressing her red lips on mine. As she is kissing me she puts her hand inside my panties to grab my cock. Mom tells me she always wanted a little girl to dress up and now she has one. She gets on top of me with me between her sexy legs and pulls hers and my panties to the side and takes my cock and guides it to her hairy pussy. omfg I am fucking my mother. I should say she is fucking me. Next she unhooks her bra and her large tits are free. she leans over so they are in my face and tells me to suck her nipples and I do, she starts fucking me faster I take her ass in my hands and hold them as she bounces up and down on my throbbing cock. I can feel my load getting ready to explode and she must have to because when I couldn't hold it any longer I knew I was going to cum and so did she. She jumped off my cock and replaces her pussy with her mouth as I explode she swallows every drop. Shamefully this became my favorite fantasy when I jo. I sure looked at mom differently from then on.

I would love hearing from anyone who would like to share their similar fantasies or comment on my blog or message me. Hope you enjoyed reading about my experiences when growing up and enjoying my own sexuality .

I was 15 when my mom went on an overnight trip and decided to leave me on my own. She wasn't gone 5 minutes when I was nude and picking my outfit from her things. I decided on panties and bra, nylons and girdle, a pleated black skirt and sleeveless sweater. in no time at all I was in a pair of pink panties, I choose a white bullet bra I had seen her wear often, seamed nylons and girdle. I was so hard seeing me in her lingerie, my cock made a perfect tent until I decided to experiment with tucking, and that felt so good and looked so femme, nice and flat.....doesn't it feel sexy with a hard cock tucked between your legs. Next I put on the skirt and zipped it closed and then the sweater. I looked so sexy in the mirror after I filled the bra with her panties to give me breast. When I was fully dressed I sat on the bed and crossed my legs pulling my skirt up so some bare thigh showed at the top of my nylons just the way I had seen my moms friends when they crossed their legs. Then something great happened, I had a new feeling sweep over me....I felt so feminine and demure. Now just feeling the bra around my chest made me feel so warm and wonderful. I loved how I was feeling it was so new and so so wonderful.....I was seeing myself as a girl and I was loving it so much. When I jo I came so hard to me in the mirror my balls actually ached for hours afterwards. I changed my cum filled panties but stayed in bra panties nylons girdle for the rest to of the night feeling so femme and wonderful. I awoke in the morning jo again and then began cleaning up before she came home. I thought of nothing but how I felt dressed as a woman and was dying to relive the experience. I could only dress when she would go away which wasn't often but would use her panties to jo when I could thinking about me dressed as a sexy woman. While waiting for the next time I though about trying makeup to add to my transition. I was so in love with the idea of being a complete woman, I needed it,

HI Like so many I was dressing early. My first time was when I was 8 yrs old by mom and aunt for Halloween. They thought it would funny to dress me as a cheerleader in my Aunts high school cheerleader uniform. Well, they did complete with panties pleated skirt and top. They did makeup and wig. Skirt was mid thigh as I remember. They took me to a party with friends and everyone laughed at me. I was humiliated. But something kicked in because I began to want to try moms things on.

Some background here. Mom and me lived with my grandparents. She was divorced when I was very young. I had to spend a lot of time in moms bedroom with her to stay out of the way. Often I would watch her get dressed to go out. Being in the fifties garter belts and bullet bras were the fashion. I would watch her put on her nylons and garter belt then makeup. So naturally I was interested in those things when I wanted to try her things on.

I was 10 when I got the nerve up to put her panties on for the first time. I t excited me and gave me my first erection that I remember. I was so afraid of getting caught I refrained except when I knew it was safe and that was not often.

By the time I was 14 both grandparents had passed so it was just mom and me. Now I had time to explore and man did I explore. The more I tried on the more I wanted to wear. I would only put on those things from the hamper. I felt so good wearing her things. I remember jo looking at me in the mirror and would cum so hard.

next entry I say what happened next ....I welcome comments or your experiences dressing for the first time.