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It’s not as if my cock gets hard wearing women’s things in fact it rarely gets hard when I am dressed up. So I think it dressing up has little to do with sex. Maybe it’s more about feeling better, like you feel more comfortable being dressed like a girl. Not that being dressed up makes you not to want to have sex but just because you put on some panties doesn’t mean you want to be fucked. But there is nothing wrong with a bit of role playing is there. One of my many fantasies is to be fucked while being dressed up. I also wonder what it would feel like to fuck someone when I am dressed up. But if I had a choice it would be for some man with a huge cock to fuck me when I have all my nice girlie things on. But I very much doubt if this will ever happen

Dressing up I am not sure why I started doing that, it was not planed or anything, the first time was about three years ago, my niece stayed with me for a while and when she left she asked if she could leave some of her clothes here, I said it was ok to do that. A few weeks after she left I was cleaning her room when I saw some of her dresses in the cupboard, I thought “I wonder what it feels like to be dressed up” so tried on a green dress of hers. I wore it for an hour or so and it felt right. Then I took some pictures of me in her dress and then I was hooked. I tried on some more of her clothes and also took pictures wearing them. It just felt nice and sexy wearing her clothes that after a while I started buying a few more clothes. I also tried on a few of her bras; although they were a bit small I liked wearing them. So I kept a few of them as well. I am not sure if after she collected her clothes she noticed that a few things were missing, she never said anything about it so I assume she didn’t notice or if she did thought she had left them somewhere. Then surfing the net I stumbled onto the bid or buy auction site and they had such a huge selection of clothes that I couldn’t resist buying more clothes. Also they had stuff I didn’t know where else to get, like fishnet stockings. Then the local pick and pay started stocking a small range of clothes, normally I only went there once a month to pay my lights and water, so I started buying the odd piece of clothing most times I went there, I just used to add them to my groceries. Sometimes I think the girls at the till used to look at me a bit strangely, but it didn’t really worry me that much. I have also bought a few pairs of stockings from our local spar; I don’t do that often though. The advantage of buying from BorB is that the stuff is normally posted, so no one knows what you are buying. Although one of the sellers always delivered the stuff to me, I told him it was for my daughters, a bit of a lie as I don’t have any, but at least he didn’t think it was for me. It’s always exciting getting new clothes; you get such a rush trying them on for the first time. Some were a disaster as they were either the wrong size of didn’t look of feel nice. But most of the stuff was great. So over time I seem to have got quite a big collection of clothes. I think a lot of the excitement of wearing women’s clothing is taking pictures of me all dressed up. I don’t think dressing in girls clothes necessary makes you gay. There seems to be a lot of double standards about dressing, it’s alright for a girl to dress in men’s clothes but not ok for a man to dress in women’s clothing. Why that is I don’t know, people seem to think if you wear women’s clothes you are some sort of pervert. I think if you want to wear stockings, panties and dresses its fine. A couple of those real life crime shows on TV just highlight the problem. A few times after they catch the crook they say they found out he wears women’s clothes, as if that’s the reason he committed the crime or he is even more evil because of his dressing habits.

Just thinking about my pictures posted here, they show the journey from bi curious to gay to cross dressing. Its been a really interesting journey, I just wonder where it will eventually lead to.
When I first joined here I used to wear panties very rarely. it had never entered my mind to wear woman's clothes. I didn't even think wearing panties the odd time was anything different.

I have got an account of how I started wearing woman's clothes that I will post next.

Its been quite a while since I last updated this blog, nearly three years. The surprising thing is how much changes although remaining much the same over time.

I am still shaving although am letting the hair grow for the moment. Maybe I will try and shave it into a shape again but am not sure if that is the way to go.

I tried to shape the hair into a heart shape but it didnt work to well, it just did not look much like a heart or much like any shape more like just a clump of hair. After a few weeks I just shaved it all off again. Maybe I will try it again later. Its definitely not something to try and do alone, someone needs to shave you.

I let my hair grow for a few months again. Just to feel what it was like to have my balls and pubic area hairy again. Not very nice I much prefer it shaven. Anyway when it was about 15mm long I shaved most of the hair off again.

I didn’t shave it all off just the hair on my balls, and then I tried to shave the rest of my pubic hair off but leaving a heart shape just above my cock. Not with much success. It was a bit difficult to get the shape right, and I don’t thing it worked very well. But now I have just left it like that for a while. I think it looks kind of cute with just a little block of hair above my cock. I will leave it for a bit longer and see what it ends up looking like. It might look a bit different when the hair left grows longer.

One thing is it is a bit unique as I haven’t seen any cock pictures like that on the site. I posted one or two pictures just to see if anyone commented about it. So far no one has said anything about it.

Ok I have been threatening to post this for a while now so today I am going to write it and post it, no more promising.

One night I was so bored on the internet that for some unknown reason I put some of my details on a gay contact web site just to see what response I would get, nothing happened for a few months and I had almost forgotten about it, when I received an email saying someone there was contacting me. So I went to the site and had a look, it was a man quite a few years younger than me, who said he wanted to chat to me. So I sent back a reply to his message and we exchanged quite a few messages over the next few weeks. When he asked, I sent him a few pictures of myself and he sent me a few of his pictures, his face picture wasn’t to clear but the few of his cock where, it looked awesome, large and thick, but I thought it wasn’t really that big it was just the way the pictures had been taken. I also sent him some pictures of my cock and of me standing and sitting around naked. I wanted him to see what I looked like so if he ever did meet me he wouldn’t get a surprise. After a while of chatting through the messages he expressed an interest in meeting me, at first I said yes but then got cold feet and changed my mind. He kept asking to meet me sometime and eventually I though ok what the hell its just a meeting. So I agreed to meet him at a shopping centre one evening the next week. At first I was a bit excited to be meeting him but then got worried, thinking about what if he wanted to have sex, and tried to think of some way to get out of the meeting. I couldn’t find any reason that would get me out of the meeting without me sounding like a real idiot so I just had to keep the date.

The time just seemed to fly and the evening of our meeting came almost to quickly. I arrived at the shopping centre a bit early and as I wasn’t so sure what he looked like I decided to wait in the car till the right time and phone him to see if he was there. When it was the arranged time I phoned him and asked where he was, he said just outside the shops, where was I, so I told him I had just got there and was still at my car he asked where and I told him. He came over and said we could go to his place, which was close by for some coffee and a chat. By this stage my mind was in such a jumble, I just said yes ok, I am sure if he had said I must take off all my clothes and walk through the shopping centre naked I probably would have said yes ok and done it as well, I don’t think I have ever been so nervous before in my life.

So he got into the car and we drove to his flat, which as he said was just around the corner, and had some coffee and sat in the lounge chatting. After a little while he came and sat next to me and started rubbing my thigh with his hand it felt nice so I didn’t stop him, then he moved his hand up my leg and was feeling my cock and balls.

He then said why don’t we go to his bedroom, not knowing what to expect I said yes ok. As soon as we got into the room he said lets take our clothes off. I was a bit shy at first but as he had seen pictures of me nude I thought ok why not and got undressed. I thought we where going to maybe jerk each other off, or just chat, I still cannot believe I was so naive. As soon as we where both naked he held my cock and I took his cock in my hands, damn but it was big, at least twice the size of my cock.

After we had felt each other for a bit he said I must lie down on my back on the bed. At this stage I was starting to get worried, but did it anyway. When I lay down he pulled my knees apart, got between my legs and started sucking my cock. I have had lots of blowjobs before but he knew every trick in the book and it didn’t take long for me to cum. I came right into his mouth and he swallowed all my cum. I came so hard that I had difficulty getting my breath. I closed my eyes and could just feel his mouth sucking every last bit of cum out of my cock.

I was still breathless and had my eyes closed when he stopped sucking my cock and before I could do anything he was on the bed with my legs on his shoulders pushing his huge cock into me. My first though was oh hell now what have I got myself into. As he pushed his cock into me it felt like he was going to rip me apart but then once it slid inside me it felt much better. He then fucked me like that. He came inside my ass it felt nice having his cock going in and out me like that. When he came he pulled his cock out and then went to clean up.

I just lay there not really knowing what I felt like. It wasn’t what I had planed to happen and it was something I had always thought was wrong but it felt so good.

When he came back to the room he asked if I wanted to shower, I said yes and went to the bathroom and had a shower. When I had had a shower I thought should I put my clothes back on or what? As my clothes where still in the bedroom I had no option but to walk through there naked, what was the use of wrapping a towel around my waist, its not as if he hadn’t seen and felt my cock and balls or my ass. So I just went there naked and joined him in the room, we chatted a bit then he asked if I wanted more coffee, I said yes so he said lets go to the lounge, when I wanted to get dressed he said no why don’t we stay naked so I just went naked. We had coffee and chatted for a long time like that and then I went home.

The next morning at work I tried to work out what I felt about the whole thing, part of me said it was not right but another part said it might be wrong but it was such fun and felt so nice. After much thought I decided to try it once more so phoned him and made a date for that night.

This time he had my clothes off just as I came into his flat and didn’t suck my cock but lay me on the bed put my legs on his shoulders again and pushed his cock into me and fucked me again. He fucked me for a long time before he came. When he had been fucking me for a while my cock felt funny like it was going to cum so I reached down and rubbed it up and down a few times and I came as he was still fucking me. Wow it felt so nice, me shooting cum all over the place while he was ramming this huge cock into my ass. It felt almost as nice as the blowjob he had given me the night before. The more he fucked me the more I came it was like magic.

This happened about three years ago. if anyone is interested i will continue with what happened next

Wow its been a long time since I last added to this blog. I will add a few of my experiences hopefully later today or early tomorrow. Not that they are half as good as some I have read about here.

Why is that so many poeple always try to change others, like trying to make someone stop smoking?
I am just asking because I have met two guys latley and both have said i should stop smoking. I know its a problem with some people not liking smoke, but both of them also smpke so why do they want me to stop?
Maybe its a control issue they want to see if I will do what they say, but I think i am old enough to make my own decisions,

Normally I shave of my pubes about every day or so to try and keep it clean of stubble, but today for some reason I shaved all the hair off my legs and body, including under my arms. The only hair I didn’t shave off is on my head and forearms. The only reason I left my forearms is that I normally work outside most of the time and I don’t want the sun to burn my arms any more than it does at the moment.
I must say it feels really good rubbing my hairless legs; I quiet like them bald so will keep the hair off them for a while I think. But I will get some nair to take the hair off my legs during the week; it might last longer than shaving. I have used it before to take off my pubic hair; it works ok but irritates my skin there.
I have just come in from lying in the sun attempting to get a tan on my body. It was nice and hot in the sun. Usually when I do that my cock gets very small and tries to hide away from the sun, inside what’s left of its foreskin. But today it was as hard as a rock and wouldn’t get soft. I could feel the hot sun burning my cock and balls. I just hope they aren’t sunburnt. Although they have never got sunburnt before.
Even where I shave my pubic hair away never seems to get a tan or even sunburnt. I am not sure why, if anyone knows he or she can let me know me please.
The other thing I like when it’s hot is that my balls hang down in their sac. When it a bit cold the sac is always tight, I think there is nothing better than my balls hanging down a bit and can feel them rubbing against my legs as I walk.