sparx1063's blog post - Ever wonder just why you dress?

I got to wondering the other day just what it is that makes me wired to love crossdressing. I have always loved having sex with women in sexy attire - the visual stimulation of how it made their body look, the feel of a nice long pair of legs in nylons wrapped around me. I was first introduced to the dressing and bi world by a friend of mine about 45 years ago. I was getting ready to go into the military and 2 nights before I left he came out to me after inviting me to his apartment for some going away partying. Needless to say I was a bit shocked at first - it was something that I never in a million years would have guessed or even suspected. I had never been sexually with a guy before, but the sight of his hard cock outlined by red garter belt and nylons made it an easy transistion. We had hot sex that night, didn't really see each other for about 6 years, and never once was it mentioned between us.

That night stayed on my mind though - what was it like to slip on nylons and heels - to dress in a way that turned me on as a man. I played around with pantyhose for awhile - loving the way my legs looked and felt it them - but never really went any further until I got married. My wife was willing to let me buy her the sexy things that so turned me on and one weekend when she was away I decided I was going to try them on for myself. Oh my goodness the whole experience took my breath away - the first time I stepped in front of a mirror to take my dressed self in I just felt this warm tingle work it's way through my whole body. Damn - I looked and felt sexy as hell - and couldn't get enough of looking at myself. I was hooked - that was 32 years ago and I have been dressing when I can ever since. Buying my own clothes, wigs, heels - and doing a damn fine job of keeping my little secret all my own.

It still is my little secret - and I have ramped things up over time to include photos, videos, small toys, medium toys, large toys, and personal meets with admirers. I at times wish I was single again so I could fulfill that passion more often - there may be times when I go 2-3 months without getting an opportunity. But when I can I go for the gusto and get all I can - but it kind of makes me wonder if the thrill of it would still be there if I could dress anytime I wished. What exactly is it that makes me crave it so much? The sexual aspect - mmm, I love how I look and feeling a nice big dildo or cock in me and being videotaped doing it. I also love how I feel on my back with my legs wrapped around a guy - kissing and hot in an embrace as he slides in and out of me - pleasuring each other. What's the real driving force behind me - sex or passion? Both? Sometimes I wish life would just be simple.....