In the past year I have had a wonderful time on this site - posting pics, videos, making friends, and simply enjoying being able to have a place where people enjoyed this side of me. Unfortunately this past June I had a house fire and almost everything I had - clothing, outfits, shoes, pumps, toys, videos and pics - was lost to the flame, smoke and water demons. Some was actually salvageable - but with my dressing and playing being totally under the radar and now having nowhere to privately and secretly stash what survived, I was pretty much forced to get rid of everything. So I am at a point in my life where I am definitely feeling a little lost - not only from not being in the house I've been in for 25 years but also from not being able to slip into some sexy outfit and film myself riding a big chunk of fake man meat. God, I miss the feel of sliding my legs into nylons and slipping on some sexy heels. I miss getting all dressed up and admiring how my body looked in a mirror - and then bringing out my pumps and working on my nipples. I miss how that dildo felt as it was stretching out my hole and then feeling every inch of it burrowing into my ass. I find myself an awful lot feeling like a rudderless ship - just kind of drifting around with no real outlet to dock anywhere. Shit happens in life and I'm not really here to garner any sympathy from anybody - just letting anyone who was wondering why I had abruptly vanished why it was so. Hang on to your passions no matter how difficult they are to accomplish - because if you are ever in a situation where they are impossible to achieve you will wish you had even a drop of some satisfaction. I don't plan on not drinking from the fountain again in my life - but getting to the point of where I was took years to accomplish, and the road back there will not be short. In the meantime I love coming back in here for inspiration - and it never fails to inspire!! |