I feel left out when I can not join a group of men playing football in a social gathering. Yes, I believe that being left out brings a lot of stress and pain that people rarely understand. I had my early schooling in Thailand. In the past 10 years, every gay and sissy was humiliated. At that time, I did not even accept myself being gay or sissy. As a result, I was neither fit in a sissy group nor the straight group. I was usually alone, and a random ball was always thrown at me. I remember one time my lunchbox was all on the floor because the ball hit me from behind. My eyeglasses were broken. Students and teachers laughed at me. It was the worst time of my life and it was my nightmare.

I moved to the U.S. to study and begin my new life because I could no longer bear how people humiliated me.

uring a new year season, the traffic is all jamming, so I decide to have some fun at work. At lunch, as people left the office for a break. I sneaked into a storage room and lock the door. I feel very horny and slutty. I removed shirt, my slack and touched myself. The only items I had on me was a sheer grey g-string, a watch, a sock, and a shoe. This gave me a lot of thrill. Here, I am officially naked at office!!! I took some photoset and realized that I would want to be even more bitchy. I removed my g-string. My penis got to its ecstasy. I imagine how good it will be to have a rough guy walking into the storage room and find me naked and alluring like this. I look at a clock...oh, it's a time to continue with my work. A nice time anyway!

Today, I feel very horny and I find it very hard to concentrate on the job at hand. Even though today is Sunday, I still have plenty of work to do. In front of me, there are documents that I need to read, projects that I need to start thinking. For one sure thing, today I wear a jock strap under a sheer gym pant. Interestingly, at some point on the street, I nearly dropped down my pant. Honestly, I have never tried driving with no pant on. I like to try driving a car in traffic in a situation that I have only my sheer cute lace thong on. It would be a great feeling after all. However, at this point, I cannot really dare to drive naked with my ass exposed and with my balls and dick see through the sheer jock strap. The reason is that I still have great concern what will happen in case I lose my concentration when driving and crash my car into somebody’s cars. I see many videos on X-tube that people can really dare to do, but I am still very concerned about the potential bad outcome, no matter what.

When I arrive home from lunch, I start to concern how to balance my urge. Nevertheless, I eventually find that the process of writing about my en femme imagination would work best in alleviating the tension. For this time, it takes me about an hour to ponder through various ways I can do. Here, I come up with the intuition that I have two personalities. From now on, I will call my second personality in the name of Naomi. Accordingly, when I am at work and need to concentrate, I will make the manly Toshio in control of Naomi. When at home, in privacy, I can start taking off my office slack and walk around in the sheer lacy panty to let free the Naomi personality. Urge of Naomi will not disappear until I finish masturbating.

I usually wears a business cloth, because I work in an office in BKK. I work as a controller and I am in charge of compiling a financial report. The weather is hot in Bangkok, and a traditional male boxer or even a bikini can make me feel uncomfortable. I remember going to Pattaya to see a Tiffany show with the company trip. I watched a beautiful male who dress in a gorgeous female dress and dance around in those flimsy cloth. There was an idea popping in my head... No! I did not fall in love with those transgenders. Instead, I started to imagine what would it be to wear those clothes in public. I look back at my daily life and see how impossible it is to crossdress in public or even at office.

By the way, if you encounter me in BKK, you might not notice me. My age is in the early 30, but my job requirement causes me to do whatever ways to bring respect and credibility. As a result, I always dress myself with the minimum of a business casual. A polo shirt, a slack, a belt, and a loafer, for instance. This is boring, so I started experimenting wearing full set of female lingerie (ordered from Internet) under my normal dress. As the BKK weather is hot, full set of lingerie would easily show through a shirt when I am sweating. I later on decide to only wear lace sheer thong to the maximum under my pant. This is the most comfortable ever! ... Now, I am looking for more fun... I am finding a way to express my feminity in public (but nobody at work should not know this!) ... To be continued ---