vicki_tv's Blog

I once had a pretty strange experience whoring around at a rest area beside the highway.
Short after I went there I made out with two young east european guys and sucked them off at a picnic table. Then one of them made me take off my top and mini-skirt so he could fuck me on the table, and while getting my asscunt banged, the other took advantage of the situation and sneaked away.

Turned out I was so horny when I had arrived that I forgot to lock my car, so he took my wallet with all the money and papers, as well as all my clothes. Thank god I always keep my keys with me.

As I returned and noticed I tried to confront them, but they just laughed at me, asking me how I'd think to stop them, a practically naked sissy boi against two well shaped lads. I felt totally helpless and humiliated as they headed to their car and drove off, leaving me there just in high-heels and fishnets, my pussy still dripping of his cum.

At first I was completely scared since they now knew my name and address from my papers, afraid that they'd blackmail or even raid me at home, hating myself for being so dumb. But while driving home, embarrassed and bare ass naked, I became more and more aroused, realizing that this was just what a totally depraved cockdumb fagwhore like me deserved. I never heard from them again, but the thrill that they could show up at my place anytime and violate me just as they like lasted for almost half a year...

It was saturday night and I was horny. So I drove around, all dolled up in a slutty black see-through top, an ultra short miniskirt and my red fuck-me heels, nails painted bright red. I stopped at a parking area besides the freeway where sometimes couples hang out for dogging. I just wanted to sneak around and feel slutty. The parking was almost empty so I went out and minced towards the wooden area behind, wiggling my butt like a cheap slut.

I felt so naughty and pranced around for about 15 minutes, playing with my tiny boiclit, but no one showed up. Just as I wanted to leave I heard some noise behind me and as I turned round a tall guy, dressed all in black, stood there and grinned at me. “What is a little faggot bitch like you doing here? Seems you’re looking for some fun.” I was scared and embarrassed, unable to say a word. He came over, pulled up my skirt and looked at my small sissyclit. “No wonder that you long for real cocks. With a little dicklet like this you’re the born cockwhore.” He began to stroke my limp clittie while squeezing my butt cheecks with his other hand. When he noticed that I started to get aroused he unzipped his pants and, without a word, pushed me down on my knees. He grabbed my head and forced my painted lips on his almost hard dick. I began to lick his prick up and down, then I wrapped my painted lips around his big cock and started to suck him, getting more and more excited.

All of a sudden I felt something warm and wet on my right cheek. There was another guy rubbing his dick on my face! I was now totally aroused, reached out my hand and caressed his cock while still sucking the other. Not long and he came, shooting a big load into my mouth. They both pulled me up and pushed me on a picnic table nearby. Laying there on my back, one guy grabbed my smooth shaved legs and pulled them up to expose my naked boipussy. He spit on my ass and lubed my hole with his finger, making me completely horny. Spreading out my butt cheeks he brutally forced his throbbing dick into my wet sissycunt and with strong thrusts he began to fuck me. I moaned and whimpered, both in ecstasy and pain, when the other stud turned my head and put his stiff cock into my open mouth. Getting fucked in both ends and groaning of pleasure I noticed a third guy beside me. He was wanking his meat, turned on by seeing a queer sissy bitch getting screwed up.

The stud who fucked my ass finally came, filling my gurlpussy with his hot cum, and now they took turns to bang my mouth and hump my boicunt. I can’t tell how many times I got fucked and how much sperm I swallowed that night, but they abused and gangbanged me for hours. When I eventually minced back to my car, cum was leaking from my ruined asscunt and my whole body was drenched with sperm. I felt humiliated and ashamed, like beeing the cheapest homo cockwhore on earth. These guys used me as their worthless queer cumdump and treated me like a mindless sissy bimbo. But then I realised that my weak, effeminate body and my limb, tiny boiclit where a gift. It was my purpose to be a gay submissive fucktoy for the pleasure of real men, and I was proud of it. Proud to be a willing fairy cockqueen, a dumb faggot cumslut just craving for dick.

For me it started quite early, at about 8 or 9 I discovered how much I adored girls, how beautyfull they looked and dressed. I was jealous and wanted to be like them, so I secretly put on my Moms panties, bras and miniskirts every chance I got, trying to pose girly in front of the mirror. Sometimes I even applied lipstick and eyeliner.
Being very skinny, with long blond hair and stuffing my bra with cotton balls, I could almost go through as a girl. I was completely naive and it had nothing sexual at the beginning, just wanted to look and act like a girl, but Germany was very conservative at that time and I was too affraid to tell anyone how I felt.

Well, one day my Mom caught me, but instead of getting angry she talked with me about it and said she's fine if that's what I like (she always was very open minded and understanding). So I regularly wore dresses, skirts, blouses and pantyhoses at home and it went quite normal when we both were alone (my parents were divorced early and I lived with her, so this was no problem).

With age 10 I started to get aroused when wearing lingerie, my tiny penis rubbing against my lace panties. It was such a wonderful feeling and I wondered if others would get turned on looking at me in my girly outfits. I began to fantasize about men watching me, getting them hot and groping me, I wanted to be seen and touched, it became an unbearable urge.

One night I felt so naughty, I dressed up in lingerie, pantyhose, flat pumps and a minidress, put all my courage together and sneaked out on the street. I wandered around, it was late and no one was there. I walked a few blocks, it was so thrilling and I felt very nasty. When I came back home I wanked half the night in my bed, I knew I had to do this again.
Getting more brave I extended my nightly walks, first hiding in the dark or behind trees when I saw other people, but soon it didn't bother me and no one ever said a word.

Soon this wasn't enough and I wanted more, so I started to run around naked in the garden early in the morning, before Mom woke up, hoping to be seen by one of our neighbours. At night I now went out completely naked, it was so exciting to feel the cold ground on my bare feet. I remember that one night, it was raining and I enjoyed the raindrops slowly running down my body and how vulnerable I was, aware I could get caught every second.
Suddenly our drunk neighbour came around the corner on his way home, I tried to hide behind a parked car but it was too late. He saw me, told me to come out and asked what I was doing here all naked on the street. I was too embarrassed, just stood in front of him, shivering in fear and unable to speak. He looked up and down my wet, dripping body, then he began to smile, obviously liking what he saw. He reached out between my legs and took my tiny penis into his huge hand, squeezed and groped it until I became hard. He asked if I liked that. I nodded, I was totally over-excited, quivered and quickly shot a very small load. He only laughed and told me to never speak about this, than he turned away. Unfortunately this never happend again, but ever since he gave me a strange look when he saw me, maybe he felt guilty or was disgusted, I don't know.

But I was trapped now, I wanted other men to do this with me. I knew about a public toilet in the nearby park, maybe I would meet horny men here. I went there at night, the restroom was ugly, dirty and smelled after urine. I undressed completely and anxiously waited in one of the stalls what would happen.
It took what felt like hours, just as I thought about to leave I heared the door slam. I shivered, I knew I couldn't get out of this anymore, maybe I went to far. The guy must have seen my naked feet under the unlocked stall door, so he opened it and there he stood in front of me, big, tall and with a fat grin, looking down on me while I tried to cover my body. "Oh, what do we have here" he said "looking for some real men, 'lil boy?" With shaky legs I stammered "Y..yes, Sir" and he replied "No need to be ashamed, that's totally natural for young boys" to calm me down.
He began caressing my hair and face, with the other hand he touched my breast. He tickeled at my nipple and told me to spread my legs and show him what I got. Still uncertain I did and revealed my tiny penis to him. Looking up I saw him smile and licking his lips. He took my hands to his crotch and told me to unzip him and get his cock out. It was big and hairy and I was completely aroused to feel it in my soft hands. I began to stroke him and hypnotically watched how his dick slowly got bigger and bigger.
Finally he asked me if I wanted to taste it and I nodded eagerly and put my lips around it. I started to lick at the tip, then I took his almost hard cock in my mouth and began to suck and blow him. I was so turned on hearing him groan and when he blew his hot, sticky load into my mouth my mind exploded. Still totally excited he pulled me up, turned me around and made me bend over. I felt his cold hands squeezing my buttcheeks, then he slowly worked his wet finger up my virgin asshole and I was in heaven. I moaned in lust while he was in me, I never wanted this to end, when he suddenly pulled out and seconds later shove his cock up my pussy. He was very gentle and it just hurt a little at the beginning, but soon I climaxed and screamed in ecstasy.

When we were done he noticed that I was ashamed and guilty, but he told me that it's absolutely normal and every young boy learns to have sex like that, but no one ever talks about it. It would be totally ok to come here and meet him regularly so he can teach me more. And that there are a lot of horny men who visit this place and I shouldn't be afraid to have fun with them. Being completely naive I trusted him and was glad that I just did what was normal.

At that time I was totally unaware that he only tried to get a cheap and easy boislut, willing to suck and fuck at any time. Little did I recognize how he slowly turned me into a queer, cumhungry whore, in the end eager to prostitute my slutty asscunt to everyone just to get fucked.

I've been asked a lot of interesting and/or bizarre questions about being a sissy slut. So here's what I've answered and some personal info about me:
(Please feel free to ask me anything, I promise to be truthful)

When did you start crossdressing?
I discovered that I'm not like the other boys at a very young age (about 8 or 9) and started to wear panties and girly clothes (see my posting 'How I became a sissy fag' for the whole story).
I've always been slender and weak, not good at sports, and got teased a lot for that. So I had very low self-esteem and felt inadequate, and finally developed a submissive personality.

Why do you call yourself a dumb slut?
I'm a cum-addicted, cock-craving sissy fag, dressing slutty and debasing myself just to attract real men. I love to feel helpless and inferior when I'm abused and degraded. I can't control myself, I do any depraved shit to get cock, so wouldn't you call that stupid and pathetic, too? Oh yes, I just love to be a brainless bimbo fuckdoll.

Do you date with girls and/or other sissies?
I think I look kinda cute, so sometimes women ask me out. But they soon discover my weak personality, so it always ends with me muff-diving, ass-licking and foot-worshiping them.
Of course, I love to play with other gurls, kissing, fondling, licking. And I absolutely adore when they take command and make me their bitch.

Have you ever been pegged with a strap-on/dildo?
The first time was by my ex gf and then mistress, Nicole. One day she ordered me to take position for her, ass up head down, telling me that since I act like a pussy I should feel how it is to have one. She put on her strap-on in front of my face, made me lick on it and lube it with my spit. Then she went behind me and slowly worked it up my tight asscunt. I had played with several objects like candles before, but it still hurt when she pushed it deeper and deeper. After becoming more comfy she poked me quite hard for half an hour, calling me her lil' cockwhore and naughty bitch. It was amazing.

Nowadays my sissy boyfriend regularly pegs me roughly and stretches my hole with all sorts of toys, dildos, inflatable plugs, anal beads. He's quite brutal and loves to see me squeal and suffer, enjoying my whimpering moans. His goal is to make me constantly gaping and get me ready to be fisted by him. I admit I hardly can wait for that day, haha.

Did you serve an owner/mistress?
Yes, my ex gf Nicole became my cruel mistress after splitting up with me because she found me too wimpy. She made me confess all my secret naughty desires to her and kept me as her on-call slave whenever she felt bored. I had to be completely naked around her except of my chastity cage, serve her breakfast, bath her, lick her both holes clean and worship her feet. Sometimes she made me parade for her in frilly ridiculous outfits just for her amusement.
Once she had me make out with one of her gay friends in front of her and suck his cock. She just laughed hysterically watching me becoming a total faggot whore for her, having her fun to mock me what a disgusting gay cocksucker and pathetic homo loser I am, knowing I'd do anything just to please her. I felt so utterly ashamed and embarrassed. Soon after she found a real man and lost interest in playing with a weak pussy like me, so she finally dumped me, sigh...

Are you into BDSM/spanking/role-play?
Yes, think I'm a bit of a painslut, both mentally and physically. I love to submit completely, helplessy subjected to the mercy of my punisher. I like it rough and forced and enjoy medium pain, but not extreme stuff like needles, whips, blood...
I appreciate (and need) harsh otk-spankigs and paddlings, especially when treated like a lil' girl.

I'm absolutely into age-play (baby, little gurl, frilly dresses), pet-play (collared, leashed, on all fours, docile eating from my bowl, meowww) and anything degrading (dumb bimbo, filthy hooker, toilet whore...)

What's your bra size?
A+, would love to get bigger boobs (my dream size is B), but I kinda like the pathetic look my flat frame gives me, with my perky nipples sticking out

What's your cock/clit size?
12x3 cm fully erect, wish it to become much smaller. But I almost can't get hard anymore, so I'm practically impotent and always limp (4-5 cm).

Do you wear a chastity cage?
Yes, I'm permanently locked and I luv it, my useless tiny clittie feels so cozy and safe in it. The little cage only comes off for cleaning or during play, if the guy/gurl demands it. I've started with a really cute pink one years ago. But because I'm almost constantly limp now, my clitty always kept slipping out, so I switched to a realy small steel one.

Do you wear butt blugs, what size, how often, how long?
I train my boipussy several times a week with my favorite butt-plug to stay smooth and wide. It's dark pink, 14 cm long and 4,5 cm diameter, and I'm in love with it. I keep it in when I'm around the house or doing my chores, sometimes to work, and when I go dogging (perfect to stay gaped and ready for cock).

The longest time plugged was about 20 hours, I fell asleep with it, giggle...
To widen my asscunt even more, I started wearing an ass tunnel (MEO Ass Grommet, size M). It hurt a bit in the beginning, but now it allows me to stay permanently plugged.

Have you ever thought about castration?
Almost every day, I so much wish to have my useless balls cut off and stay limp forever. Hope it'll shrink my clitty to baby size, ahh wouldn't that look totally cute? But it's not easy to get it done here, due to German/EU laws. Talked to a urulogist about this once, he just gave me a strange look and said it's weird and he wouldn't do it, even if it was allowed.

Have you been bullied in school, how did you feel?
Oh boy, yes, and how bad. I got bullied all time for my slender frame, my girlish walk and my long blond hair. I was slaped, pinned-down and beaten-up, called queer, faggot and homo, mocked, laughed at and groped in the gym showers, encountered lots of swirlies. I was totally ashamed, embarrassed and frightened. I felt so worthless and inferior, I cried a lot and my anyway low self-esteem dropped to zero.
But slowly I began to accept my fate as an inevitable consequence of being weak and effeminate, and that I don't deserve any better. I still felt pathetic, but it didn't bother me that much anymore, it became a common part of my daily routine. In fact, after a while I discovered in shame that I got aroused by all the humiliation and pain, and I started to look forward and enjoy my daily torment.
In the end it turned me on so much, that I completely gave in to my depraved urges and voluntarily debased myself to please my bullies and drive them on, begging them to hit me, suck their cocks and piss in my mouth. Needless to say I became the laughing stock of my school.

Are you offended when I call you names like pussy, faggot, homo...?
Oh no, of course not. That's exactly what I am, so why not name it? To be honest, it really turns me on. You can call me anything you like, I'm pretty sure it suits me

What are your most kinky/dirty fetishes?
Being a public urinal (done), gang-bang (done), non-consensual abuse/**** (done), k9 (once), horsies (still to come, sigh...)

Are you into s**t/caviar play?
No, had to do it twice and didn't like it, but I do rimming quite often.

Do you take hormones?
I did few years ago, but unfortunately had to stop due to some health problems. I'm on herbal products now, but the effects are not as strong as hrt.

Do you like watersports, has anyone ever peed over you or in your mouth?
Oh yeah, I love to get pissed on, all over my body and in my slutty face. I got filled up with yummy nectar many times and eagerly swallowed every drop. Unfortunately not all guys are into it

Do you like wearing diapers?
I often sleep in diapers/pajama pants (DryNites, they're soo cute) and wear them the whole day when they're soaked. It's such a thrill when in public, not knowing if they leak or people recognize. Wish to become incontinent one day.

Have you ever been gang-banged or violated?
I've had several gang-bangs, mostly with strangers at dogging spots (see my post 'My first sissy gangbang'). It was awesome every time, felt completely used and ruined afterwards.
I was forced to give head and do rim-jobs a few times and twice taken in the ass against my will, but I think you can't call it violation if you like it, uh?

Your most embarrassing moment?
When sneaking around campus one night, fully dressed in a slutty, skimpy outfit and fuck-me heels, and a guard caught me. He inspected me up and down for about a minute, then told me to lift my miniskirt and stroke my tiny pecker for him.
I was completely mortified and paralized, and just did what I was told. I stood there, jerked in the bright beam of his flashlight and felt so vulnerable, not knowing who else was watching me. Of course I was too scared and nervous to get hard, so after what seemed like eternity I finally spurt some small cummies. He turned around and just walked away, I don't know if he was disgusted or amused.
I felt totally ashamed and anxiously hurried to mince back to my car.