well, ive been dressing quite a bit more these days. actually ive basically been dressing everyday after work. my selection of bras and panties has tripled recently. ive been spending a lot more time iin trans and gay chat rooms, i love the idea that my can make someone hard and horny with just my pics. my curiosity grows each time i i have cyber sex , so much in fact that i find myself wanting to explore in person interactions . ive even imagined a few situations that ended with me enjoying my first homosexual orgasm.
so until i meet my effeminate. smooth skinned..sexy ..submissive .lover whos willing to gently take my flower i will patiently wait , and wonder,

well its been interesting to say the least. I find myself enjoying the feel of womens undergarments more everyday. and anal play has because an almost automatic when masterbating.i still havnt gone as far as to "dress " outside the safety of my apartment ad honestly not sure I ever will. buut for now im content. ive met quit a few very supportive women through this site who were nice enough to share with me there stories and who were happy to answere all my questions. and while I do cross dress I still hsve no desire to suck another mans dick or to allow another man to fuck my ass. the line however on me fucking anither man s ass or allowing him to suck my dick or tongue my ass is becoming increasingly blurred.. but as for now while typing this I guess im still a virgin (for lack of a better word) . I guess its coming time for me to decide if this is as far as im willing to go o n this road or if allowing myself to embrace, kiss. receive head or even fuck another man is a possibility.

so nothing has really c hanged much as far as dressing up in womens lingerie goes. except I did go out a buy my first two pairs of pantyhose yesterday. it was kinda strange , I was incredibly nervous and for no credible reason I believed thst everyone who saw me knew they were for me and not for some unseen spouse or girlfriend. in addition to the nerv ousness was a sense of excitement , I just couldn't wait to get home and try on my first sets of brand new "hose". I wasn't disappointed I tell you they felt amazing.
also not only have I began playing with m=yn own ass during masturbation but also my girlfriends during fore, wouldn't youn know she totally surprised us both and loved it. by the end of our last encounter she was begging me to fuck her in the ass.and as I buried my cock deep into her I couldn't help but wonder what the difference is between fucking a girl or a guy in the ass. I still havnt worn any womens garments outside who kniws maybe tomorrow.

I just recently discovered the pleasures of womens panties . while masterbating with a oair of my ex wifes I couldn't help,but notice how soft they were , and after trying them on I believe I was hooked . through what I can only assume is a natural evolution, panties led to panty hose led to bras,led to body suits which led full lingerie . I even began stuffing the bra cups , somehow I felt sexier with a full cup. i have let my girlfriend finger my ass while sucking my cock and have become accustomed to masterbating with a plug inserted. .
and while i don't find men actractive and have no desire to suck a cock. i cant help but wonder where this personal evolution is going to take me? for now im off to isert my favorite plug and watch some porn as i lay here in my ex wifes white teddie