Yesterday I had the afternoon off so I decided to put on one of my favorite bras and a new matching thong under a ladies top and ladies shorts and go to the Adult Book Store. When I arrived there was a very hot blond woman in line to pay for a pass to the video booth area with her boyfriend, This is certainly not the norm and I was intregued by the possibilities. Here is a picture of the bra and panties I had on.

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Needless to say when I followed them into the booth area every guy, gay and straight, started following them to join or get the glory hole next door. In went the first guy, then a second and third. After several minutes minutes the door opened again and it was my turn..

After entering the booth I took a quick peek to see what the deal was. Both of them were completly naked and she was on her knees. I could see he was fucking her doggy style with her face near the glory hole. When she positioned her hand as if to take my cock I stepped up and let her have it. She imedeately started sucking me off.

This is why my wife and I no longer have sex. It took less than 30 seconds for her to get my limp cock to give up a load of cum. Yes that is pretty pathetic. When you are useless for a woman's pleasure there is only one thing left to do. Become the useless cock sucking sissy you have fantasized about or decades.

I have been trying to process this since it happened this past week. As usual during the summer I had Thursday afternoon and Friday morning off from work and was home alone. I took care of the chores around the house and went upstairs to change. I put on a very pretty white lace bra and thong

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I also put on olive green ladies shorts and a light blue ladies top. My legs are shaved, I have on no makeup, my hair isn't done and there is just no way to mistake that I am a guy dressed in women's clothing. After getting dressed I got in the car and went to the Amazing Superstore on Charles Street in Providence. When I got into the video booth area it was unusually slow so I decided to find a booth and watch a little amateur tranny porn. After a few minutes I noticed a gentlemen enter the both next to me. I peeked through the glory hole to see what I could see and he was busy playing with his cock. It was very average but fully erect. I guess he must have seen me looking because shorty there after he poked the head of his cock through the glory hole.

Now I really like to watch and be watched so as a rule I don't play with cocks that come though but there was something about him that made me grab a hold and start to stroke his cock. After a minute or so I let go and left my booth to see if he would let me into his. Again not something I would normally do. He unlocked his door and I went in. He smiled and said hello. I undid my shorts and let them fall to my knees and took off my top so that I was standing there in my bra and panties. He just smiled and said now that is unusual. Since he didn't throw me out I decided to play some more and gentle took his cock in my hand. He started to play with my nipples in my bar and caressed my cock in my thong. It was at this point that something happened that I had never done before.

I sat down in the chair and began to kiss the head of his cock. Something took over and I just took him as deep as I could into my mouth and I just didn't stop. I started to give my first real blow job to a bare cock. I went into a trance like state as I slide him in and out. I started to think will he climax or will he say something to alter me. This went on for a few minutes. Eventually he pulled out and said not yet I am not ready to cum yet I just got here. Just knowing that I had brought him to the edge of an orgasm made me even more determined. I took him back into my mouth and began to suck again. A few more minutes went by and he pulled out again. I looked up at him and said but daddy I want to be your little slut. He immediately got it and started to slap my face with his cock calling me a little slut and a whore. It was all I could do not to jerk myself off as I didn't want to lose the moment. We repeated this pattern for about 15 minutes, the whole time I was actually thinking to myself I want to make him cum in my face. Each time he got close he stopped me and made me wait with his cock in my face. At one point he garbed the back of my head and he pushed his cock all the way down my throat. As he did it he said take it slut. I don't know what it as but my mind just started to focus on one thing and one thing only getting his cock back in my mouth and making him cum.

Eventually however he said time for a break and left me there frustrated in just my bra and panties. So since then I have been trying to process the feelings I had. Wanting to make him cum. wanting to suck his cock, wanting to have his cum all over my face and mouth. I have never felt this way in the past. Could it be that I have crossed some line and there is no going back. It may be a bit before I go back but in the mean time I will remember the moment as the day I gave my first real blow job.

I can't believe how difficult it is to meet the right person. I have reached a point where the fantasy of dressing and being with another CD is no longer enough. I take pictures, post them, read peoples comments and pleasure myself. This used to be enough to fuel my very vivid imagination. This is no longer enough. So for the past year I have been actively seeking another CD to hang out with and eventually play. I don't mind saying it. I am looking for a cock to suck on a regular basis.

Last week I was contacted by this very cute Puerto Rican guy. He was in his mid 30's and had a cock to die for. We chatted on line over several days and eventually we agreed to meet at a local coffee shop. Yup you guest it he ghosted me. It seems that everyone is either to shy to meet or wants to fuck you in the ass the second they meet you. Very frustrating!!!

The summer continues to pass and I continue my quest to meet another CD in hopes of establishing an exclusive play friendship. So far not much luck but I am hopeful. In the mean time I continue to play here on cam and on a web site called dirty roulette. Basically a random chat site where you can state your interests and it try's to match you with others that have the same interest. I get a few CDs that chat but mostly it is admirers who want to jerk off while watching me. Here and there I get a guy that is verbally abusive (Full disclosure it turns me on to no end being called a sissy fagot) and once in a great while I run into a real woman. Since I have this thing for people watching me in my lingerie I just love the whole cam thing.

The other thing I have been doing is going to the Adult Book Store. This summer my store of choice is the Amazing Superstore on Charles Street in Providence. There always seems to be at least a couple of guys there. Last week I went wearing a pink ladies tee shirt and beige ladies Bermuda shorts. Underneath I wore a lemon yellow bra and panty set. The set is part of the No Boundaries collection from Walmart and it came in six or seven different matching sets that I just love. More than once I have worn one of the matching sets to the ABS under my girly shirt and shorts.

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I bought this top at Walmart this past week. I am giving serious consideration to wearing it to the ABS this week with a pair of black ladies shorts.

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I was there for about 10 minutes in one of the booths just playing with my little sissy cock when what should appear in the glory hole but a cute little dick. So I decided to see what would happen if I started to gently stork it. To my surprise it started to get really very fast. This young man must have been so horny because it took all of 3 minutes to get him hard and make him squirt a load across the booth. Not even sure he knew what I was wearing just that another guy was playing with his cock.

After a few minutes I noticed a guy watching tranny porn. He came out of his booth and I walked up to him and told him that I had noticed he was watching tranny porn. I asked if he liked it and he told me it was ok. So I logged in here and pulled up the above picture. I just smiled and said I have this on right now. I then walked over to a booth and went in leaving the door unlocked. Sadly he didn't take me up on the clear invitation to join me. Oh well time to get myself off and go home.

I guess they all can't be horny young men.

The summer continues to pass and I continue my quest to meet another CD in hopes of establishing an exclusive play friendship. So far not much luck but I am hopeful. In the mean time I continue to play here on cam and on a web site called dirty roulette. Basically a random chat site where you can state your interests and it try's to match you with others that have the same interest. I get a few CDs that chat but mostly it is admirers who want to jerk off while watching me. Here and there I get a guy that is verbally abusive (Full disclosure it turns me on to no end being called a sissy fagot) and once in a great while I run into a real woman. Since I have this thing for people watching me in my lingerie I just love the whole cam thing.

The other thing I have been doing is going to the Adult Book Store. This summer my store of choice is the Amazing Superstore on Charles Street in Providence. There always seems to be at least a couple of guys there. Last week I went wearing a pink ladies tee shirt and beige ladies Bermuda shorts. Underneath I wore a lemon yellow bra and panty set. The set is part of the No Boundaries collection from Walmart and it came in six or seven different matching sets that I just love. More than once I have worn one of the matching sets to the ABS under my girly shirt and shorts.

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I bought this top at Walmart this past week. I am giving serious consideration to wearing it to the ABS this week with a pair of black ladies shorts.

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I was there for about 10 minutes in one of the booths just playing with my little sissy cock when what should appear in the glory hole but a cute little dick. So I decided to see what would happen if I started to gently stork it. To my surprise it started to get really very fast. This young man must have been so horny because it took all of 3 minutes to get him hard and make him squirt a load across the booth. Not even sure he knew what I was wearing just that another guy was playing with his cock.

After a few minutes I noticed a guy watching tranny porn. He came out of his booth and I walked up to him and told him that I had noticed he was watching tranny porn. I asked if he liked it and he told me it was ok. So I logged in here and pulled up the above picture. I just smiled and said I have this on right now. I then walked over to a booth and went in leaving the door unlocked. Sadly he didn't take me up on the clear invitation to join me. Oh well time to get myself off and go home.

I guess they all can't be horny young men.

I have been active on Fetlife for about a year now. I have had some nice online conversations with a wide range of people. Everything from a transitioning FtM to male admires. Recently I have been chatting with another married CD. He was very eager to meet so I agreed to join him in a hotel room in between our homes. Very upfront with him that I would not participate in anything sexual during our first encounter and he was good with that.

When I arrived he now Donna was already dressed and just putting on the finishing touched of her makeup. I went to the bathroom and quickly did my makeup and got dressed. I had on this outfit.

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We sat and talked Donna on the couch and me on the edge of the bed for the better part of 2 hours. I could tell she really wanted to fool around but I said sticking with my original position of no fooling around on the first date. As things wrapped up for the day I did learn that Donna has ED. Have to say that was very disappointing as the whole goal of getting to know another CD is to eventually have oral sex. She has not contacted me since and frankly because of the ED I have not tried to contact her.

I will keep looking and maybe one of these days I will hook up with the right person.

If you read my blog or look though my other profiles on Xhamster and Flickr you have probably have figured out that I have a very vivid imagination. Yes my wife knows all about my crossdressing and yes she has been out with Amanda in public. She also encourages me to dress whenever and where ever I want. I like to tell people that the very first gift she ever bought me was a teal green silk chemise nightie. I cried for 15 minutes then proceeded to wear it when ever she stayed the night.

I hope this is not making people upset but a lot of the remaining stuff, Lord Gregory etc. is just what my imagination dreaming about how I would like to be treated. For the most part I have kept that out of here but a confession my wife has not cuckolded me. Sorry.

Late last summer I joined Fetlife. It is a Facebook for kinksters. You can post pictures join groups and have chats with others simply by signing up. Unlike here there is no requirement to verify your identity but for a fee, like here, you can access additional content. Mainly videos made by armatures having sex. Unlike here I posted my true desires. I desperately want to meet another CD for a little play. To my surprise I have been contacted by several local people who are interested in meeting. So far those meetings have not materialized but I am setting up another meet for this Thursday afternoon. He is a admirer who is single. We are meeting for coffee and if everyone is comfortable I am going to meet him and his sissy maid at his home the following week. He eventually wants to take pictures which makes me a little nervous although he has agreed to leave the camera out the first time we play. He has also agreed not to show my face in any pictures should I not want him to. Some clarification on that point when we have coffee as I wouldn't want pictures with my face in it taken. Although I suppose if my face is not in the photo I am ok with it.

What do you all think? How would you know you could trust someone without having known them for a long time?

Good morning everyone.

It has been a few weeks since I made an entry here so I thought I would stop by and check in with everyone. Been able to have some quality Amanda time over the past few weeks. That has included shopping for dresses and lingerie. This past week I went to Macy's and I found this wonderful summer dress. You know I just had to have it. I also picked one that was the exact same dress in just a different color. I can't wait to try that one on for you next week.

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I also managed to get a few new bra and panty sets. Intimates by Sophia at Walmart and Auden at Target have become my favorite lingerie lions as of late. I just love the sheer girly look of Intimates by Sophia and I thought the strappy look of these two sets was very sexy.

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While dress shopping at Target I just had to check out the lingerie. I found this teddie this past week.

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Of course I never just shop for lingerie. I found this very cute top at Target to go with my jean skirt a couple of weeks back.

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I have also taken the time to join Fetlife. I really am on the hunt for a regular play partner in the RI area. I want to have one person who I can easily get together with. I want to build a long term relationship with someone that I know is safe, sane and most importantly a drama free person. That way when I have his cock in my mouth I can think about pleasing him without the fear of getting something I don't want. I have had a few conversations with other CDs and one trans woman. I agreed to meet the trans woman for coffee but she blew me off. Guessing that will happen more often than not. I have also told a few people when I would be at the Amazing Superstore (an Adult Book Store for those of you outside of the area). So far I have to run into any of this folks yet.

On my last trip to the ABS I spent an hour or so wondering around the booths. I don't suck strangers cocks but I will give out hand jobs. Who know where a good hand job will lead. I do love it when they cum for me. I wore this bra and thong panty under my bot cloths this past week.

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Ok so that is it for today. Enjoy and if you are around on Thursday AM (EST) stop by the video chat and say hello.

One of my favorite things to to is go shopping. I normally go shopping in person but on occasion when I can't find the correct size I order it on line for instore pick up. That gets you on all the email lists and it just fuels my shopping addiction. Yesterday was one of those days. Checking my email in the morning and reading through the Target advertisement I spotted this very sexy bralette and thong panty set by Auden. When I arrived home from work I did my household chores and made my way upstairs to change. I put on a cute matching bra and panty set under my jeans and a pink ladies tee shirt. It always feels so naughty to have on a bra and panty while dressed in boy mode.

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When I got to the store I was so disappointed to find that not only didn't they have the correct size, they didn't have any size despite what the web page said. All was not lost however as I did manage to find three very nice rib knit tank dresses that will look nice this summer. Here is the pink one.



Feeling disappointed I decided to go down the street to one more Target. There I found not only the bralette and thong panty set I wanted but the had a very similar version in an underwire bra. I can never buy a bra without a cute thong to go with it and after poking trough the draw of panties I found a cute thong. One white one black. I couldn't decide which looked better so I just bought them both.

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By this point I am really starting to get randy. I can feel my panties getting wet as I walk around and I just can't stop shopping. I seem to have developed this desire to wear teddy style lingerie. Over the last few months I have purchased several of them and I do enjoy wearing them with fish net stockings. You guessed it. As I was walking away to go pay for my new lingerie I spotted a very sheer black teddy with a thong back and very pretty lace trim. I added it to my shopping basket and made my way to the registers to pay, but not before picking up another dress.

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After all that shopping I was so very horny. Rather than go home and jerk off alone I decided to go to the local Adult Book Store (ABS), the Amazing Superstore of Charles Street in Providence. There were several people walking about the video booths looking for the right hook up. I did the same checking doors on occupied booths. In one booth I found a gentleman completely naked jerking off. I stepped in for a moment but he was old enough to be my father and it kind of creeped me out so I walked out. I then garbed a booth with a glory hole as I like to let the boys watch me jerk off in my bra and panties. As always I pulled my pants down and took off my tee shirt. Standing there jerking off to armature tranny porn and waiting. First up was a cute little cock. Neatly trimmed but just wouldn't get hard. Next came a Spanish cock. Also on the small side. He wanted a blow job and I don't do that at the booths because there is to much risk. Last came a nice white cock. Good size and reasonably hard. I jerked him off for almost 15 minutes but nothing. So I finished myself off and headed out.

So that was yesterdays' adventure. I can't wait for my day off next week so I can wear my new bralette and matching thong shopping and to the ABS.

Amanda

So for the first time in a few months I had the opportunity to have some sissy amanda time. I just couldn't wait as I had ordered new bras and panties from HerRoom and I new they were at the PO Box. So off to the post office to pick things up and then to do a little shopping at Walmart. For a few weeks now I have had my eyes on a matching bra and panty set from Adore Me. I was so excited that they had the right sizes and I quickly picked out three bras and two matching thongs. They only had the matching thong for two of the three bras so I spent a few minutes looking around and although I didn't find a suitable match I did find the most devine junior miss g-string panties by No Boundaries. All in at Walmart I bought 5 bras 6 thong panties. Here are a few pictures.

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After coming home to try on things I was just so horny. I put on one of the new braletts and matching thong panty and headed out to run a few errands. I was able to get the errands done quickly So I decided on more shopping. Off to Burlington Coat to see what I might find but alas nothing. I almost picked up some everyday thong panties but I have so many and the wife has been busting me about having more underwear than her so I passed. By this point I was so horny I couldn't take it any longer and I headed to the Amazing Superstore. For those not in the area it is an Adult Book Store chain in Providence.

When I got to the store on Thurbers Ave I went in. As usual things there were slow at 3:45 in the afternoon. None the less I did as I always do and took a swing through the lingerie to see if anything would catch my eye. There I spotted a very sheer and sexy teddy. I just had to have it and since there was no-one in the store but me and the two clerks I decided to purchase it and head over the the Amazing Superstore on Charles Street. What do you think?

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When I got to Charles Street the parking lot was full. I went in and purchased a pass to the video booths. There here were a few people hanging out and one occupied booth with a glory hole in operation. I took the booth next door and started a movie. Looking through the glory hole I could see I guy wanking away to porn. I took off my shirt and lowered my jeans and joined him. He then presented his ass to be fucked. Not being into that I waited and was rewarded a few moments later with his cock. Clean shaved and semi hard but on the small side. Truth be is that is exactly what I like. So I started to give him a hand job to see how he would react. As he grew firmer in my hand I was about to go join him in his booth when he simply let go a nice big load of his seed. That was a little disappointing but fun.

From there I went back out and checked on the other booths. Finding none occupied I garbed a booth. I left the door unlocked to see what might show up and after a few minutes the door opened and I heard a female voice ask if she could join me watching a video. I thought oh my god I have hit the holly grale a real woman. Well sort. Turns out she was a very attractive m2f trans woman with a very nice set of breast. I know because she showed them to me as she explained a blow job was $100 and the full monte was $150. Not having that much cash and having a strict I don't pay for things I can get for free I passed. I hung around for a bit, watched a few movies and eventually decided to head out after cumming to a very sexy trans woman blowing a BBC.

Well that was my first adventure of the 2023 summer. I am sure there will be more to come and when the pictures are approved by the admin here I will update this post to show you.

Bye for now
Amanda